Pappy and I rode the street car every Friday evening during my early childhood.
My weekend visits perked Grandma up better than her prescribed nerve medication. She filled my belly with food and my heart with love. As I got older, she fed me rutabagas and rye bread and thick skinned chocolate pudding for dessert. Slabs of toasted coconut bread waited for me after school, a gesture of her love.
She raised her voice and all five feet of herself up when my high school diploma was presented, and wept harder at my wedding than she did when her second husband died. I became her confidante when, in her golden years, she fell in love with an eighty-year-old two-timer.
She lured me with food; we sat at her table, giggled like school girls and nourished each other.
"Have some soup. I think he's seeing a redhead. Do you think I should dye my hair red? He stopped in to see me last night." Her goo-goo eyes made me laugh.
One day she called and asked me to bring my portable typewriter. "I have something very important I want you to type. It's a secret and I want you to write exactly what I say."
I imagined a love letter and formatted it in my mind. She greeted me and touched my new curly permed hair. "I love your new hairdo. Could you curl my hair like that? I think Joe would like it."
Chronic obstructive pulmonary disease had her in a death grip and I explained that the perm fumes would be harmful.
I opened my typewriter. "How should I begin, My Dearest or My Darling?"
I wrote the greatest love letter of all time that evening, and it was not to her gentleman friend.
"My Daughters and Son," she dictated her last will and testament, bequeathed her meager possessions to her six grown children and professed her love.
"You are the only one I can trust to do this,"she said softly. "This is our secret."
The next day she was rushed to the hospital. Her failing health led to a lengthy hospitalization. Each time I visited, she asked, "When can you give me curls?"
"Soon," I'd say, but her illness progressively worsened. The hospital summoned. I was the first family member to arrive, but it was too late.
"Expired," the nurse said as she led me into Grandma's room.
"Dead."I thought, because Gram and I never minced words.
I sat beside her, wept then wiped my eyes, stood up and walked to her night stand. By the time I was finished telling my grandmother how special she had always made me feel, every strand of her hair was wrapped in pink sponge rollers. "Grandma, there's a halo waiting for these pretty curls."I smiled, turned and walked out of her room.
Linda O'Connell has been published in Chicken Soup for the Gardener's Soul, Joyful Woman, Whispers from Heaven, numerous magazines, newspapers and anthologies. The ocean tugs at her Midwest soul, and her grandchildren tickle her fancy. She and her husband enjoy camping. Linda has been a preschool teacher for thirty years and still considers it her dream job. Contact her at billin7@juno.com
Copyright 2006, Linda O'Connell
